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I am a Software Engineer since Aug 2004. Master of own space, Fun loving but within a limit, hate pulling other's leg, twinkling brain thinking of surroundings, blend of culture and sanskar, priest of music, always ready with a helping hand and a smiling face, Mr Attitude for people who deserve it, but a true and great friend for my friends ...

Monday, June 22, 2009

I Miss You Papa...

That was the last day of my 5th semester exam of my MCA. The exams were over and I was taking a long rest. I was really happy that I have nearly completed my MCA and will be soon in the corporate world. Just to mention that, I had already a job in my hand unlike most of the guys and gals of my class.

It was nearly night 11 PM and my friend Ratnesh got a call in his mobile from my uncle. Ratnesh rushed to me and handed over the phone to me… I was half asleep by the time and the news that came from the other side of the phone shattered me. I was speechless… I did not know what to do… I could not tell anything to my uncle… I still remember him saying, I know you are a brave boy, you can handle this… Come soon… We all are waiting for you, your father is no more, he left us today evening… Really shocking news for me… I could not even cry…

I directly went to my bed and slept… My friends talked to my uncle and arranged air ticket for me from Cochin to Chennai. I had only Rs 300/- in my pocket and a train ticket to my home, the trip was scheduled after 2 days. All the people from my hostel came to my room, even my friends from other two hostels came in the night to my room, all collected money by sharing the little money that they had… Finally, they collected Rs 33,000/- for me and with that money in my hand, they dropped me at the airport at around 3 AM. The flight was scheduled to depart at 4 AM. I boarded the plane. I was nearly senseless; I did not know what was going on in this earth that time. I could not formally thank my friends for all the timely help that they did. Not to mention, I found, only friendship is the relation that lasts forever… I still remember all the faces of my friends and all the help that they had shared …

My dad, our guiding star he was. Without telling a single word to us, he used to take care of all the things for family. I never asked for anything to him, as that was never necessary. He knew what we should have, what we should eat, what we should drink and all… Being a child, never realized that he is doing all this without ever being selfish to himself.

Once he left us, the whole family responsibility came to us. Thank God, by that time, at least I had a job in my hand, though the joining date was little late. We did not have to go through many problems. We shifted to other city, and life moved on… Though we all missed him from core, nobody told other that he/she misses him… The cloud of loneliness was always there in the house for long… Whenever we do celebrate something, we missed him… We missed him in all our happiness and all our sorrows… Whenever we had to take a decision, we missed him a lot… “May be this is what his choice would have been, may be this is the decision he would have taken”…

When he was around us, I could not formally say "I Love you Papa, I admire you for all the works you do for us”… Now that he is not here, I really miss him a lot. Especially when I am alone and in silence, without even I know, small drops of tears roll from my eyes when my mind thinks of him… Today being “Father’s Day”, I do really miss him a lot… I really miss u papa and I Love you so much… As I write this, few tear drops have rolled indicating that he is still there with us guiding us in our paths being somewhere unknown, unseen ….

2 comments:

angel from heaven said...

So touching If this is a true story.I am deeply sorry for your sad loss.May god give you strength.

Unknown said...

it touched my heart.2 drop tears came from my eyes like you..