Why do I?

Date: 13th May 2009. It is polling day in Tamilnadu and my office has declared a holiday on account of this. I am at home now. Time: 11 AM. Mom is busy watching her favourite telugu serials on TV which is the last thing that I want to watch on TV. Switched on my laptop and some random thoughts went in my mind, that finally took the shape as the post below:

Do I know her?
Why am I looking for her in every place?
Why do I think that she will be there waiting for the same bus?
Why do I search for her in all the chambers of a train?
Why do I try to find her face in others’?

Do I know that she likes rain?
Why do I wait for heavy rain in this summer?
Why do I think that she will come to me in this rain?
Why do I compare the rainbow with her face?
Why do I look for her smile in all the rain drops?

Do I know that she likes peaceful places?
Why do I look for her in all the temples?
Why any peaceful place reminds me of her?
Why do I sit alone thinking that she will come to me?
Why do I feel alone being in the crowd?

Do I know that she plays with alphabets a lot?
Why do I try to form most of her name from any random name?
Why do I stop at the tea shop named in her name to sip a cup of tea?
Why do I glance at every frame of the shop to find her name?
Why do I look for her name in all the novels that I read?

Do I know that she likes songs a lot?
Why do I hear her sweet voice from each of the song that I listen?
Why do I try to sing all her favourite songs though I can’t?
Why do I see her face smiling with all the words of the song?
Why do I write songs for her though I know, I can’t?