About Me ...

- Chinmaya
- Chennai, TN, India
- I am a Software Engineer since Aug 2004. Master of own space, Fun loving but within a limit, hate pulling other's leg, twinkling brain thinking of surroundings, blend of culture and sanskar, priest of music, always ready with a helping hand and a smiling face, Mr Attitude for people who deserve it, but a true and great friend for my friends ...
Tuesday, October 4, 2011
Wednesday, August 5, 2009
Hey Friend, Please... !!!
Note: All characters in this story are purely imaginary. Any resemblance to persons living or dead is purely coincidental :P - Chinmaya
I am very sorry that I did not realize that you did care for me a lot. I remember the day when I did not have any interest in life just because all my past happiness came to an end, life for me shattered and I was thinking I am nowhere to lead a life, you were the one who helped me to get out of that situation and lead a normal life. I did not ever formally thank you for that. I thought we two know each other now so closely that a “Thanks” would sound too formal and that may create problem, however small it could be, in our present relation status. Now I realize that, even in close friendship, we should have respect for each other. I know, I have taken all the help from you whenever I required and now that I am settled little in my new life, I nearly forgot you. Now I realize, I am not good for a holy relation called “Friendship”. I am really sorry. It makes me really insane that I could not value the relation that we had, so silly I am. Forgive me my dear friend, please forgive me. I am no good even to myself now, and I surely can see, how it could have anguished you. But, I know, you are good, you might have continued with your life spreading happiness in other lives. I know, you are capable of that and you have been doing that as you did for me. It was only me, who could not understand you. I took you as granted. Every help and every step towards my good life after the shattering of my past life was with your esteemed help. You did help me without any selfishness and it’s only me, silly me, who had selfishness in every step. I did seek help from you only when I thought; it’s you, who can help there.
Please don’t make me cry… Please say something…
Silence…
Please for God’s sake, say something. Say that I am selfish; say that I am good for nothing. Say that I do not value friendship. Say, please, say…
Again silence…
I know you are so anguished, it is nearly impossible for you to forgive me, but please do forgive me. Without your forgiveness, I can not have this life. I will go back to my old life, don’t know what will happen to me. It was only you who have guided me to this new life, so please just forgive now to enable me to lead this life…
Silence…
Please, please, please….
Silence…
Silence…
Cring… Cring… Cring…; the table alarm clock started sounding… She opened her eye and saw the fan above is rotating in its slow sizzling sound. She did stop the alarm and thought where she was until now, what she was doing late night and when she slept…
It was too late in the night. She was busy in internet and that made time to fly. When she got a glance at the watch that was settled not very far on the same table where her lovely lappy was, it was 2:00 AM. She got surprised that till 2 AM, she is glued with WWW and then the sudden thought of taking a nap came into her mind when she did shut down her lappy and rushed to the bed that was lying just beside the table.
Oh… So, was it a dream? Silly! No, no, wait… It can not be a dream. It is reality of my life. I have done so. What should I do now? Thank God, at least in dream I did seek for forgiveness and I said “Sorry” from the core of my heart. But, he did not reply… How could he, I was dreaming… No…. I have to be real now, It is the time to say in real…
She again rushed to her lappy, started it, logged into yahoo messenger and looked for him… It was 7 AM, and he was not online… Still her inquisitive mind did not stop her to open chat window of him in offline mode. She just cleaned her eyes and started typing all that she wanted to tell him in hurry... With all the eagerness that she was typing there, only tic-tac keyboard stroke sound was coming out of her room while the fan was still doing its job of rotation and rotation around...
Monday, June 22, 2009
Friendship or Love?
One day he met a girl who really cared for him and understood his feelings. With the time, they became very good friends and on the path of the strong relationship they shared, one day she proposed him. He refused as he did not want to do such things and also decided not to talk to her. But somehow their conversation began and the girl told that they would remain Friends Forever. He agreed and talked to her as he talked earlier…
He did not realize; but slowly he was also falling in love with her… The sweet river of love started flowing in his heart… He started seeing the girl in some other position; he wanted to give all the happiness to the girl…
Later he realized and proposed her one night while they were exchanging messages. She did not say anything. But the instinct of listening “Yes, I love you too…” kept him irresistible. He could not sleep that night… Again, next day, he asked the girl. She replied, “Now, I don’t have such feelings for you… You have changed now… You are not that boy now… I don’t see you in that view anymore…”
Tears rolled down from his eyes, but he could not say anymore… First time in his life, he cried for someone. He also wondered how such feelings can be changed soon and a lot of questions were arising in his mind, but he did not say anything to her as he did not want to force her for loving him….

Days went by and they lived as very good friends ever after ….
Sunday, June 14, 2009
Friends ...

June 8: Best Friends Day - Time to enjoy and appreciate your best friend. It's a day to honor and cherish the relationship ...
If you're lucky, you have a best friend. If you are real lucky, you have a number of best friends. Best friends are very, very special people. You spend countless hours with your best friend going to events and activities, or just hanging out. You share secrets, hopes, dreams, aspirations, and disappointments with your best friend ...
Tuesday, March 17, 2009
For A Reason!


Some people come into your life for a SEASON, because your turn has come to share, grow or learn. They bring you an experience of peace or make you laugh. They may teach you something you have never done. They usually give you an unbelievable amount of joy. Believe it, it is real. But only for a season.!


Tuesday, February 24, 2009
You'll remember ...

- You would want to share your past and you expect him to listen whole-heartedly and smile at your silly points when you say “I know both the sides of the coin”
- You want somebody with whom you can sing any duet/song that you think is one of your favourite songs
- You think of somebody with whom you feel homely and confident in friendship
- You need a book to read and you know he would be there to understand your need
- You need somebody to feel the feeling that you have
- You need help in making your CV/resume look good and you know he would help you out
- You need help in rephrasing your achievements in a year and you know he would help you out
- You think of somebody who reads your mind and asks many times “Are you OK?”, “Is everything all-right?”,etc
- You wear a good dress and think of somebody who would never say “Your dress is good” before you, but never forget to ping you to say so
- You think of one who would ask you about your lunch and dinner when you feel like skipping them
- You think of somebody who would fight with you for some points that he doesn’t like, and will never tell directly, yet he would try to change that in you indirectly and yet care for you from core as if nothing happened
- You think of some situation/environment which is created/manipulated by someone where you are respected and well-treated
- You think of somebody who would say “I stopped calling my friends and got too much busy in my work” and yet would care for you and treat you as part of his extended-family of friends
- You think of somebody who can call you after a long silence and give fundas of life, the way to live and the way of behaving with others
- You think of somebody who would maintain constant thread between his friend-circle and would try a lot to bring both ends to common level when there is some misunderstanding between friends
- You think of a software Engineer rated top for consecutive years
- You think of dinner outside with friends and you expect one among them who would manage all of them
Wednesday, October 29, 2008
Friendship Flower ...
And friendship like a flower,
That blooms and grows in beauty
With the sunshine and the shower.
And lovely are the blossoms
That are tended with great care,
By those who work unselfishly
To make the place more fair.
And, like the garden blossoms,
Friendship's flower grows more sweet
When watched and tended carefully
By those we know and meet.
And, if the seed of friendship
Is planted deep and true
And watched with understanding,
Friendship's flower will bloom for you...
Monday, August 4, 2008
Friday, August 1, 2008
Friendship Week
Tuesday, July 8, 2008
The hand of Friendship ...

A hand that reaches out in friendship
Takes a firm hold and gives a little tug
To lift up your soul
And your heart feels a hug
This hand of a friend
Is letting you know
They're holding on tight
And never letting go
Thank You for Holding my hand
When I've needed it the most
Real friends stay by your side,
Always showing you their true self...never anything to hide.
Some put on a mask...but in the end God knows their task.
Saturday, June 28, 2008
Backup Friend ...
Monday, June 2, 2008
Friendship ...
"The rule of friendship means there should be mutual sympathy between them, each supplying what the other lacks and trying to benefit the other, always using friendly and sincere words." - Buddha (BC)
"Friendship improves happiness and abates misery by the doubling of our joy and the dividing of our grief." - Marcus Cicero (BC)
"The only way to have a friend is to be one. . . A friend is a person with whom I may be sincere. Before him I may think aloud." - Ralph Waldo Emerson (1803-1882)
Interacting amiably with family and friends is a super stress reducer. Instead of the mind working overtime on worries and problems, it is occupied with thoughts of other things and other people. There is less mental capacity left for anxieties and self-doubt.
Good friendship is healthy but it isn't easy for everyone. Getting people to like you is the starting point, and that should be fairly easy to do. People have a basic need to be liked themselves. Show interest, appreciation, and kindness. Smile. Praise given out sincerely is a great act of friendship. Be a good listener and try to see the good, not the bad qualities in people. These actions will usually be returned to you, sooner or later...
Monday, April 28, 2008
Sunday, March 9, 2008
True Friends ...
- A true friend laughs at your stories even when they're not so good, and sympathizes with your troubles even when they're not so bad.
- A friend is someone who understands your past, believes in your future, and accepts you just the way you are.
- Truly great friends are hard to find, difficult to leave, and impossible to forget.
- If you make friends with yourself you will never be alone.
- Life is partly what we make it, and partly what it is made by the friends we choose.
- Even though we've changed and we're all finding our own place in the world, we all know that when the tears fall or the smile spreads across our face, we'll come to each other because no matter where this crazy world takes us, nothing will ever change so much to the point where we're not all still friends.
Tuesday, February 19, 2008
A Friend ...
Monday, December 24, 2007
Gone ...
Friends have been coming--going--many a year.
The doors stand open there.
Some, lightly stepping, enter; some depart.
Freely they come and freely go, at will.
The walls give back their laughter; all day long
They fill the house with song.
One door alone is shut, one chamber still.
- Mary Elizabeth Coleridge
Thursday, November 29, 2007
Friends ...
